Wednesday, February 28, 2007

nobody ever made me feel this way,
but you do not know how to appreciate this love

dance was ohsogood today. finally got 5 of them pretty synchronized. though not all of them but to me, it was huge improvement. satisfaction felt, at last (:

school was as usual. nothing much to update about.
assessments are arriving. and im totally anticipating! haha. dont ask me why tho i know its silly. prolly its the 4 months long holidays awaiting tht makes me feel this way (: let me stickwittheassessment during this period of time babehs.

mhmm. talking about perfection.
why struggle vigorously for perfection? does it really make you delighted and pleased at the end of the day? is the end result that really that significant? maybe the good result does, but on a second thought, does competition really mean so much to you? whats the purpose and intention? okay. i think i should think twice about having a strong desire or inclination to compete right now. it may be an advantage or disadvantage to myself. but hopefully, i'll take it as a perspective, a good way.or maybe i just detest admitting defeat. not that im a sore loser or some sort. just that the word "LOSE" isnt in my dictionary. its a negative term anyway. its better to shun away from it AS FAR AS POSSIBLE. no one likes losing. maybe i just like being better than others. i believe in myself in what i can achieve. maybe this is good too(: do not belittle your own abilities and limits. have faith in yourself then you will get your desired result and accomplish what was attempted or intended. whats most important is trying to achieve your goals despite setbacks(:

now,this whole perfection thing sounds like a weird sense of dilemma. its okay. im pretty much in a confused state right now.
stay or go?
i super-ly need a fcuking answer please.

i realised im weak at times; but i dont want to be that way.
i dont want to keep harping on the same matter day over day. time is precious. lets not waste it like that.
boy, youve got the whole of me.
but im sorry but to say i really feel like giving up at times.
cus im so vulnerable and i know youre not going to be there for me.
and i clearly know that at the end of the day, its still my choice.
and all i know is:
i dont want to be a loser at the end.
because you already made me felt like one idiot previously.

my heart told me to stay.
my sanity told me to leave.
my conscience told me youre one big sucker, for a reason.
my eyes told me you aint true.
my ears told me you lied.

i love those who are always by my side.
love; double that.

My Sexy Kisses!